How I feel. Heartbroken

That's how I feel everything I saw those photos in Facebook, Instagram or Twitter :(
but I'm not showing that "Bastard" and the face.

Somehow I just feel upset because I know I can't join. All what I can do now is be patient and just live with it.
I pray.
Not to lost my besties in KK. Some of them. Tasha, Belle, Vivian, Chok. I miss all the moments with you guys. We spent lots time together, all the girls time..
I wish we can be friends forever.

CAN ?